Monday, May 14, 2012

Formerly Food Addicted #9 - Grocery Haul

A new health food store recently opened in my town, so I decided to stop by. It was a little dangerous because I did not make a list before I went. But, I had fun.

Here is a list of what I bought, kind of moving from left to right, back to front...kind of:
  1. coconut oil
  2. dried apple rings
  3. avocado
  4. Gorgonzola cheese crumbles
  5. Amazing Grass green superfood powder (I don't really like vegetables, so hopefully I can get a good dose of nutrients from this while I try to retrain my palate)
  6. romaine salad mix
  7. red bell pepper
  8. grape tomatoes
  9. strawberries
  10. French fries ( I'm having a hard time letting my fry habit go, so I figure I can at least go with organic ones and bake them instead of going to the Wendy's drive thru)
  11. Clemmy's sugar free ice cream - I was excited to finally try this ice cream that I have been hearing about. Natural ingredients
  12. frozen raspberries
  13. chicken wings
  14. Kind Nut Delight bar
  15. Metromint orangemint water - no sweeteners or artificial flavors
  16. Poland springs sparkling water - raspberry lime - no sweeteners or artificial flavors
  17. uncured center cut bacon
  18. whole chicken - this was free! 
Have you tried any of these items?

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Formerly Food Addicted #8 -Knowing Who I Am

It feels so good when you go several days in a row with no binges. I am making mostly healthy food choices, and enjoying it. My weight is back to moving in the right direction (check out my Weigh in Wednesday page each week).

I recently started reading Brain Over Binge. I haven't finished it yet, but I had sort of an epiphany while reading. The book reminded me that the binge behavior that beckons me is not really who I am. It is a struggle I have, but it is not representative of the real me. On a regular day, my inner desire is not to eat horrible foods in astronomical quantities. Even in the midst of a binge, it feels like there is a war going on - the part of me that doesn't want to binge is very much present, but has given up. So, in light if these thoughts, and the thoughts shared in the book, I was reminded that I do not have to give in to the binge. It is not who I really am, so I don't have to do it.

I thought it would be helpful to define who I really am and want to be as it relates to eating, so that I can refer to it when the monster appears:

I am striving towards optimal health
I have a healthy relationship with food
I enjoy eating a variety of nutrient rich foods
I continue to educate myself about nutrition
I eat minimal amounts of sugar and processed foods
When tempted to binge eat, I can be victorious through Christ because "....the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world." 1 John 4:4b
Rather than entertain what the binge monster would have me taste, I would rather "Taste and see that the Lord is good..." Psalm 34:8a
Even in those moments when the compulsion seems unbearable
And I feel I can only get relief by giving in
" All things are lawful for me, but not all things are profitable. All things are lawful for me, but I will not be mastered by anything" I Corinthians 6:12
I am free